The day I said I won’t come in to work
Little did I know that the world was going to shake and sit up
I said I don’t really know what I want to do
I need time out to figure things through
Glances were exchanged and discussions happened
All so sudden that I could barely fathom
Things and gestures changed the very next day
I had to hand in everything and I had to pay
I gathered my pieces and I gathered my notes
I put them in a box and said ‘I’ll put you back together sometime soon’
‘Have you completely lost it?’ Some asked with a lot of conviction .. ‘What will you do next?’ Was their follow up question!
I felt I didn’t want to speak on that very day, that very moment
I stayed silent
I didn’t have plans and I didn’t have paper
I took the suitcase out and I put my clothes in
I set out on a journey that even I couldn’t think
Today as I look at the happy sun rising, I find my stillness that I have been looking!
As I pen this, I would like to reiterate, to find the self, loss is the only way.